22/08/2008

Last friday after CG about 11somthing i fetching en hui n pk back,i put down enhui,then pk turn..haiz..tat time i receive my mummy call,she say "....."after i get the news,i stood there for few second,i already dont know what can i do now,so blur...when my turn to back i drive half way i already can't tahan,my tear is coming out from my eye,my HEART is pain n hurt now...whn i stop crying, i Escape ths Q..i go do other thing until 4something in the morning, i tot i adi nth jor,but when i go to bad and silence down i only knw i not yet cover de..the next day i like normal go to prayer meeting,eat lunch with them,ply with them..but my heart n brain is thinking ytr the thing...ths few days i already do my best dont think negatife thing and dont let ppl knw i got prob already de...luckily i really 'zuo dao'..ths few days my mummy keep calling me ask me how n tat.n other side also keep sms me..DENG..i already so FAN adi la..can u dun keep ask me ths n tat ma...let me settle by my own la..now not ur facing them, is me you knw...now u only ask me change other job,if u knw one day their will knw me,why ur still wan me to work here..nowadays i work i very scare to see them you knw...I DONT KNOW HOW TO DO LA...WHo can tell me n teach me???when i knw ths i dont knw who can i talk with...i felt so lonely,no one beside me...anything also handle by my own...AHHHHHHHH....i don't wan face so many prob alone ah..tired facing prob...